I just realized that I haven't been writing much here.

It's been a weird few weeks... I feel like nothing is going on. I mean, nothing. I feel myself sitting at home with nothing to do, knowing damn well there are things that can be done. In the middle of all this, nothing happens and I just can't anything to write about. I want to write, but there's nothing that I can somehow mash together for an entry.

There are a few things in my life that I could talk about, but I've chosen not to. It's either the time isn't right, or it's getting into areas of my life that I don't feel right talking about right now.

I feel that everyone out here that blogs has their own personal blog "governor" (ooo... lets call that a PBG™) that throttles how much you want to say, or are willing to say. Some people have that PBG™ set a little more open than I do. They'll talk about intimate things about their family, friends, work. Sometimes that PBG™ is wide open, and those are the people that suffer some personal ramifications of being that open to the world. Sometimes that'll get slammed via comments and email about their choices in life - whether it's just a certain political stand, their favorite team, or maybe it's about writing how they feel while trapped in their daily commute. Something innocuous like that, that readers - mostly people that just skim by their site every once in a while - that compel the visitor to comment. And sometimes those visitors have NO FRIGGIN' CLUE who the blogger really is and perhaps misinterprets what the writer says, and just goes off on them in the comments. It usually spins into an argument with anger and venom.

Ah, the life of living publicly on the web.

Or maybe the writer talks candidly about work and coworkers, and *poof* - they get "dooced" and lose their jobs. (Dooced? Yep - look it up in the Urban Dictionary)

I wish my PBG™ was a bit more open than it is. I feel I have responsibility to my family, friends, coworkers and whoever that I come across to determine how much - if anything - should be divulged to the public. I'd never do it without their permission. It's a trust that I hold with them. Unspoken.

Maybe someday I can open up a little bit, but I just can't do it right now.

Which leads to God-awful boring rhetoric about "what I did today" and what thing I'm interested in today. Hell, if you noticed - I don't even really swear or use obscene language here. I don't know who's reading my drivel - why offend them? It's not like I get a lot of visitors here - so why turn anybody away?

Now, those of you that know me also know that, in actuality, I'm not writing for you - the visitor/reader. I'm writing for ME. If you like what I say and stick around - THANK YOU - if you don't, well, "no skin off my nose" as they say. I wasn't writing for you to begin with.

Does that meandering make any sense?

Anyway, no post doesn't mean nothing's happening. It just means I didn't write, for whatever reason. I just didn't write.